Hooray! Im back to blog again. Hahah. Ok, had soccer match yesterday at Queensway secondary. Walaoeh. Their field super terok can. Suck shit lah. The whole field, extremely muddy, extremely dirty and super smelly. It was such a turnoff. Hahaha. But..Still, fun was there. I know it was
expected that we will lose and true enough, we lost 7-0. Nadia-the-goalkeeper cried after the first half. But hey, everyone did well. its was a virgin match for majority of us and its pretty well done already. Dont give up, never say die J
most of them were injured and so am i. but it was worthwhile. And yesterday was wedRUSHday. The whole day I was rushing. Rushing to get kerks present, going for match, rushing to kerk’s birthday dinner and rushing home. Was kinda pissed cause dad was really irritating and we quarreled all the way till 1am =/
I lost my voice as usual. My throat is hurting. i nearly lost all my freedom, joy and passion. I lost my confidence, I lost my pride. I lost this game of life and I lost, myself.
it was a bad night I would say. And so I was depressed all the way till this morning I saw my friends, chatted with them and so I began to cheer up a little. Just as I was feeling empty again, baby stood right in front of me when I was photocopying my notes today. I couldnt believe what I was seeing man. Honestly babe, you really got me this time. Too many feelings rushing through my veins to my head, too fast I dint know how to react at all. It took me some time to get back to reality and admit and fact u really came to surprise me. I was so touched :(
to you: the way you make me feel is so special and so unique. And you touched me more and more as the days go by. I dont know how you do it and i really wish you can tell me so I can be like this too. Though we arent together for very long yet, youve understand me so well and you seriously got me speechless sometimes. God has a reason for planning my life this way. He had his reasons for making yesterday so bad and now I finally understand why. He planned for me to have my soccer match on the same day you had your dance to see how much I mean to you and what your choice will be. Unlike many, you chose me when dance WAS your life. He let us lose so that we will learn and win in future. You wrote tiny encouraging notes while I was having my match and placed them in my bag and the place I will see. And not forgetting, the cheers you said while I was playing. Refilled my water bottle for me so I wont get dehydrated. And after the match, I was so bloody dirty and muddy. Instead of staying away, you came so close. You even washed my boots when you were so pretty dressed up, carried my stuffs for me when you know I was tired.
You celebrated my friends birthday as though she was your close friend. You cared for all of them as though they were your family members. Its amazing how you can click so well with them. On the way home, dad pissed the shit outta me. I was feeling super grouchy and impatious but you my dear, remain so clamed and peaceful. You held my hands so tightly, giving them warmth when they were freezing. You never let go no matter how hard I try to shove you off. You just sat beside me, keeping quiet in fear you might say the wrong thing. You soothe my heart with your gentle touches and comfort me by whispering into my ears that everything will be ok. you reassured me and because of that, I know I can always depend on you. Even if the whole world tumbles down, even when im lost, you will be there to pick me up and lend a listening ear. Thats how wonderful you are. You are so beautiful on the inside. What am I compared to you? Seriously, nothing. You get jealous when I talked to girls, you feel hurt when I injured myself, and you feel down when im down and you feel so much happier knowing that im happy. Your emotions are twice the amount of mine. And I feel what you feel. I know youre gonna tear so badly after reading this but I dont say all these often. As you know my inspiration doesnt come daily. I just want to say a HUGE thank you baby. For staying and sticking with me so faithfully, for loving me only and for letting me know how much I mean to you. Thanks for holding on and..
I LOVE YOU LAA :D