ive been thinking so much, so much so i cant sleep at night. i find myself waking in the middle of the night almost everyday and feeling so cold. even when im asleep, i see you in my dreams. your shadow; theyre haunting me wherever i go. they wont let me leave, they wont let me breathe. i cant speak, im suffocated with the constant thoughts of you. im drowning in this game for two, trying so hard to shout ur name. but, will u save me? i doubt so. cause i'd just most probably dragged u down and kill u instead. ive just typed one whole chunk of bullshit that even i dont understand a single fuck im typing. it's chinese new year and im emoing. how fuckening can my life get huh? oh wells nevermind. smiling is a form of medicine, although it's more like curing others than me, haha, i'd just do it anyhow. smile gracey, smile. you look gorgeous in it :D
going to aunt's house for reunion dinner later. missed them somehow, haven been going up for dinner for quite some time. life's been a busy bitch lah. lol. im looking forward to see my niece and nephew. OH and im back to reading fatal seductions. muahahah. right now, i need lotsa things to keep myself busy and really occupied. so im staying home to read the book and going to do some workout later. it's time to start having some healthy lifestyle before the sick shits start. there are many things i wana do during my attachment period. things like, clubbing, pubbing, SHISHA( top priority) and my arts museum :((