what hurts the most ,
was being so close
and having so much to say
but watching u walk away.
and never knowing
wad could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do.
no words can describe how heavy and broken my heart is feeling right now. it's worse than a million knives piercing through my skin. in case you people want to know whats going on, yes we broke up. i thought it wasnt over but actions have shown and provedthat i was so damn wrong. sometimes i just feel like one pathetic fuck. if only i was really that steady and strong to let go, but obviously im not and i cant. this love is so over, so freaking finished. theres no turning back, not even as normal friends. life's a fucking hell for me right now cause theres nobody i can talk to but to keep it to myself. even if somebody wishes to lend a listening ear, i doubt ive the courage to even open my mouth. i never knew the impact was so strong, i guess i really overestimated her, myself. it's too late for anything now and i find myself trying to occupy every single minute of my life with shits. i just wana lose my senses, lose my mind. at least it numbs my pain for the time being. i dont give a fuck about this life anymore. there isnt any purpose in taking life so seriously. you be surprised the grace might be someone uve never seen before and perhaps, this change might make me happier. you caught me off guard, threw me into state of loss when i saw the changes you made.
if i had read your posts earlier, trust me. i wouldnt have bother you by asking you to meet me. but still i thank god for letting me see you for the one last time. and you'll never get to hear from me again. if this is what you wanted, i'd give it to you. i'd let you go and move on with what i have now. i hope you can successfully forget about me and i thank you for the wishes and wish you well in life from now onwards. god bless you.