paranoid & helpless
whats gotten into me lately. im not the person whom i used to be. dont get me wrong cos im turning for the better and somehow, i just dont really like it. cause the me now, cares more, gives more, worries more and gets rejected and hurt more. i used to vent all my frustrations and anger out but now, i find myself keeping quiet most of the time. the temper seemed to have lost the way and disappear. i thank god truly for that cause it's what ive been praying for so long. i still need time to adjust though, a lil bit more time to get used to the 'good' side of me. the sudden change makes it hard to accept. sigh.
sigh, i am such a bad catholic. today is good friday and im missing mass cause i had to work. of cos i could have went today but i chose something else, and for that, im really sorry. so i made a promise to him that i will go on sunday since its easter. work is kinda boring today cos there were alot of people asking how much was the gps but managed to sell none cause it's too expensive. where have all the rich gone to? church? maybe ah. catholics and christians are like so rich nowdays! oh crap, soccer girls having friendly against jjc tmr morning. kicking off at 815am so theyre like meeting around 7? most probably i'll kick the ball with half my eyes close. hahah.
whats gotten into me lately. im not the person whom i used to be. dont get me wrong cos im turning for the better and somehow, i just dont really like it. cause the me now, cares more, gives more, worries more and gets rejected and hurt more. i used to vent all my frustrations and anger out but now, i find myself keeping quiet most of the time. the temper seemed to have lost the way and disappear. i thank god truly for that cause it's what ive been praying for so long. i still need time to adjust though, a lil bit more time to get used to the 'good' side of me. the sudden change makes it hard to accept. sigh.
sigh, i am such a bad catholic. today is good friday and im missing mass cause i had to work. of cos i could have went today but i chose something else, and for that, im really sorry. so i made a promise to him that i will go on sunday since its easter. work is kinda boring today cos there were alot of people asking how much was the gps but managed to sell none cause it's too expensive. where have all the rich gone to? church? maybe ah. catholics and christians are like so rich nowdays! oh crap, soccer girls having friendly against jjc tmr morning. kicking off at 815am so theyre like meeting around 7? most probably i'll kick the ball with half my eyes close. hahah.