maybe ive got influenced by gf cause im starting to think alot when i travel long distances now. and when i start to think back on the things that has happened, it all begins to make sense. gf's absolutely right. it's disappointing to see the one you believed in so much not lending a hand when you needed help. freak all the shits about being there, being the one that understands and being the one who helps. youre just someone who lives everyday trying to be somebody else. youre so practical in life, at times i feel so ridiculous being with you. you find another friend and you discard. i hate to say this but youre just so superficial. right to the extent i feel disgusted by your words and actions. im sorry im no longer in that category anymore. ive grown up and im seeing things very differently now. ive understood that you can never have the best of both worlds and if you insist, you'll just end up having none. dont give empty promises. dont fucking do that.

when you try so hard to be somebody else,
you lose yourself.

woke up at 10 this morning. never slept so well for a very very long time. went to visit my second aunt and my niece and nephew. my niece is so tall and even more chubby now ! omg its scary cause shes not even primary one. ahaha. i guess in 5 years time, i'll have to lift my head to talk to her alr. headed to town after that to SHOPPP :)). gf came to find me after work and i bought one fcuk shirt, a gap belt and grey towel ! poor girl, she looked damn shag. rest early tonight okay ! im feeling excited about fyp tmr yet super lazy to start doing research. anw i want to watch IRONMAN and WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS !