to my beloved you,
It's supposed to be a good sunday but i guess i spoilt it somehow. I know its hard to accept and to face such harsh reality but nobody said it was easy. Being one that's so dear to you, it really breaks my heart. And it's hurting even more than it has ever did. Whenever i hear all these, the only thing that comes to my mind, is you being overly paranoid. But truth is, im the one thats afraid. Im even more shaken than you, even more worried but i dont wana show all these in front of you. Perhaps, this is where i takeafter you? -Always putting up a strong front.
You make me really angry at times til the point when i curse and swear and wish either one of us was dead but you never fail to make it up after that with tiny little actions and they just touched me and make me smile. We dont really talk and often at times, the way we truly express our feelings is by screaming at one another. Funny when you think back now but at that moment, i reallyhated you. Disappointed, angry, heartbroken, sad, whatever negative feelings, youve put me through. But one thing for sure, i never regretted making that decision 9 yrs ago.
Cause i know you are great. And that's why im standing here being who i am.
Despite all the obstacles that kept coming, you never gave me up. You sacrificed and you tolerated. You cried in the middle of the night in silence and i felt it. I miss those times when you cuddle me to bed, cover my blanket for me in the middle of the night, lying on ur lap and watching tv together. How i wish everything can just return back to that point of my life. It's heart wrenching to see how things are becoming now. I wished we were quarrelling but our energy are both so drained.
And when im alone now, i start to realise that i haven't really done anything for you. As much as i want to, i dont know how and i dont know what. I can only watch you sigh in despair, frown and walked away with your head down. I guess the only thing i can do now is to spend more time at home and take care of myself. We need to be strong so please don't give this up cause i can lose anything in the world, but you.
I'm praying for a miracle, a miracle for you.
Lord, everything happens for a reason, this i know.
But i need the strength.
please answer this call,
It's an emergency.
It's supposed to be a good sunday but i guess i spoilt it somehow. I know its hard to accept and to face such harsh reality but nobody said it was easy. Being one that's so dear to you, it really breaks my heart. And it's hurting even more than it has ever did. Whenever i hear all these, the only thing that comes to my mind, is you being overly paranoid. But truth is, im the one thats afraid. Im even more shaken than you, even more worried but i dont wana show all these in front of you. Perhaps, this is where i takeafter you? -Always putting up a strong front.
You make me really angry at times til the point when i curse and swear and wish either one of us was dead but you never fail to make it up after that with tiny little actions and they just touched me and make me smile. We dont really talk and often at times, the way we truly express our feelings is by screaming at one another. Funny when you think back now but at that moment, i really
Cause i know you are great. And that's why im standing here being who i am.
Despite all the obstacles that kept coming, you never gave me up. You sacrificed and you tolerated. You cried in the middle of the night in silence and i felt it. I miss those times when you cuddle me to bed, cover my blanket for me in the middle of the night, lying on ur lap and watching tv together. How i wish everything can just return back to that point of my life. It's heart wrenching to see how things are becoming now. I wished we were quarrelling but our energy are both so drained.
And when im alone now, i start to realise that i haven't really done anything for you. As much as i want to, i dont know how and i dont know what. I can only watch you sigh in despair, frown and walked away with your head down. I guess the only thing i can do now is to spend more time at home and take care of myself. We need to be strong so please don't give this up cause i can lose anything in the world, but you.
I'm praying for a miracle, a miracle for you.
Lord, everything happens for a reason, this i know.
But i need the strength.
please answer this call,
It's an emergency.