I couldn't find any best way to describe how i was feeling but i found this picture. It definitely paints more than a thousand words to what's going through inside me. I've had my highest high and it's finally going down. Maybe it's still not the lowest but it's enough to make me lose my appetite, my sleep, my drive..my mind. Can't believe how fast and impactful these transitions can get sometimes. I'm totally speechless and i must say that im defeated once again. Perhaps this time it's a little different and that is, ive lost really badly. It's like ive been running in circles, frantically searching for a way out in this huge forest of love. When the wind blows, the leaves on the trees sing in tune, the mockery harmony. As the chrous gets near, i feel the breeze brushing across my disfigured face causing that unbearable throbbing pain in the heart. Everything you ever said to me comes knocking me down, making every breathing even harder and every footstep even heavier. Im all bruised due to the constant falling and tripping over broken branches and i bleed just to know i'm alive.


{
I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why?All the possibilities...
I'm sure you've heard.
Well, I was wrong.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Pain, make your way to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.

That's what you get when you let your heart wins.
}