Spent the day at home sleeping and thank god for that lovely rain..it was awesome. The temp totally cooled my frustrations down. After today i'm even more confirmed that it's impossible for me to go ahead with my further studies. Not anytime soon, not even the near future. Even now as i'm typing this post, he's right beside spitting his bullcraps. Urgh, whatever. I just hate myself for not being smarter, not being more dilligent. Right now i'm just hoping that my resumes will have responses soon so i can quit rotting nuts at home. Thought of it makes me sick, so fucking sick. "I'm not crazy i'm just a little unwell. I know right now, you cant tell but stay around and then you'll see. A different side of me."

I can't believe my fingers are getting so retarded these days and sad to say, it's getting worse. I can't seem to type properly and even texting is causing me alot of problems. I just closed my movie window in which ive already buffered for the last.. 20mins? How dumb! :(

Lets go back to yesterday's game. First time playing at jalan besar stadium and the pitch is really beautiful. Coach was right about the spotlights, it's so bright that i can't even see the ball when it's on mid-air. An experience for ALL of us, especially ZENA & 4LEGS who got whacked on the face by the ball. Young women's team was really cool. They're sponsored from head to bottom by Nike and the opponent's team always has more substitutes than us.
Like seriously, its something that has never change since i joined the team. Second half was a little screwed compared to the first maybe because everybody's getting injured and losing the spirit. Lost the game but as usual, all of us were still laughing and joking away. Something worth blogging about what choy said,

Choy : grace!do you realised after every game, we're celebrating like as though we won?
ME : wellll, that's because we dont judge the scoreline but treasure the process of fighting as a team together!

Soulmate turned up by surprise at the later part of second half and yes lah, i was a LITTLE touched. bwahah! Cabbed back to taman jurong cause i was feeling so weak and hungry. That bitch made me walked all the way to the 154 busstop and end up, missing all the buses. Had to cab back home in the end. I'm refraining from cabs for a month now !

And now i just wana dedicate this short little post to my most beloved, dearest, sweetest, definitely-10times-better-than-jean friend,
(yes its you fa! dont look no further!)

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I know you were feeling really down yesterday after the game cause of every little thing that happened and maybe of coach's remarks. I understand how hard he has been pushing delia and you but that's only because he saw the leadership potential skills in you. He can be really straightforward in his words but im sure there arent any negative meanings to it. Even a blind can see what kinda player you are and the contributions youve made to the team. You're much better & stronger than this. Remember how you used to make that perfect pass to me and me scoring? How wonderful isn't it ? That can happen as long as you dont give up. We'll do just that the next game after i returned. I WANA SEE YOU SMILING :D
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